At 31 weeks...and counting

Wow this week visit was nice....saw lil Immanuel kicking away and finally out of the breech position. 

Placenta still midway...still praying hard that it will move up....I have till 37 weeks...

This visit I had 3 questions for Dr Fong...

1) circumcision for the lil one

Ans- done by a PD. Will not be done by him

2) confirmation of his gender 

Ans- clearly saw his pair of balls...so guess yes it's a boy

3) can I take long journey on the road? 

Ans- Johor area not a problem 

lil one weighs at 1.5kg....and growing well. For me..so far okie. Weight issues under control...need to eat more vegs

Saw lil spider veins...abit worried....

I finally told V about my concerns about having too many people in the house during my confinement. Was such a relief. 

K just trying to document as much as I can recall....haha....next time I see u...on Boxing Day... 

memories are made of this pregnancy

Wow pregnancy does weird things to your body. During my first trimester, i had these super weird dreams. then it stopped. 

Now that i am in my third trimester, it came back. So far from ghost buster to star wars to some sci-fi movie set, super bizarre i swear. I wake up feeling super disoriented and weird times wish the dream can continue. Am waiting for dream of my kdrama hunks, thought i should have a scene with LMH given the fact i have been faithfully watching him.

Been talking to Mr V about what kind of parenting should we adopt. I mean like showing him some random articles and asking him what he thinks. I think he is too chill. Here i am like thinking every other day if i will be a chill spontaneous parent or a super KS aunty parent, there is mr V doing the whole chill shit.

Post the 1-sided conversation, i thought deeper into what he said. Guess its just that control freak in me that is trying to anticipate all sorts of scenarios in my puny mind. And that stresses me out. Looking at my own sis & bro, plus my own group of 'parent' frens, it is really different strokes for different folks. 

just rantings on a Monday afternoon...yawnzzz

Moving along to 28 weeks...Lil Immanuel is the size of a large eggplant this week

With 83 days more to go...along with occasional panics and anxiety...yes lil boy is growing and making his presence felt.

Last night i had an amazing dream & a rude awakening to that with a damm blardee leg cramp. Anyway quickly before i forget the dream content, thought i document it out.

I think i saw lil Immanuel in my dream. It was some sort of a chase, i think i was in some supernatural ghostbuster group and pregnant with lil Immanuel. During one of the chase, obviously i had to pop lil one out. But the thing is i had absolutely no recollection of the birth process only the fact of the aftermath once i woke. When i woke up, apparently the baby that was presented to me - Tyson Tan was NOT my baby (obviously given the tag was a TAN). hahaha ...but i remember clearly his features and it was all as i desired except he was super tan! hurhur...

anyway i remember being shocked and worried oh no where is lil Immanuel. Was he kidnapped by bad guys or something? hahah and the next moment someone wheeled him into the room and there he was swaddled comfortably. K tricky part is i don't remember exact details of his features, BUT i remember it was not what i expected. He was healthy but had small eyes. Think hair was a tad sparse. After that onwards ....it was a blurr and then i think i got interrupted with the damm leg cramp!!! boo...

But hey i think it was a damm pretty good dream. hahaha..ridiculous but quite nice! Its like i had a crystal ball and i swear he felt so real to me!!! 

k i think i managed to document most of what i remembered liao!!! Poor V ...also had a rude awakening coz he had to help me with the damm cramp considering he was out entertaining till 3am. 

Well lil Immanuel, i pray you continue to grow well inside mummy. Remembering that mummy, daddy and Jesus love you always. We pray you will be blessed with Jesus character and mold in his godly image. Amen.

And of coz continue to bless my pregnancy and the impending delivery. Let it be natural..... Amen to that too. 

At 27 weeks....

This week I still see u at breech position. Hope you lil one is comfortable inside mummy's womb....

dr Fong told me my placenta a tad low but least I am managing my weight well. 

I had a chat with papa V and he finally shared the name and verse of what Jesus told him of our lil boy. 

Quite sweet verse...and so lil one shall be named Immanuel!!

Add parallel

Isaiah 7:14

King James Version (KJV)

14 Therefore the Lord himself shall give you a sign; Behold, a virgin shall conceive, and bear a son, and shall call his name Immanuel.

Anyway ....D day approaching fast. Am left with less than 90 days ...sense of panic....anticipation....excitement....weirdness....all encompassing...can be over whelming. I sometimes feel so alone....it's scary...

Well I managed to attend pre-natal class with mr V. Well feel so depressed at the amount of stuff I need to eat. Gosh....wish I can take all these stuff without literally eating it. Like can inject or something... Lil boy...must stay healthy n handsome okie...

Daddy n mummy love u heaps...n of coz Jesus loves u too.... 

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I have no patience

Been a while since i rant about work. And today i need an avenue to rant and i can't find any other place to rant.

Anyway I have been tagged with this planner of mine for the past almost 2 years. Well firstly when under the first boss he was the pet, hence he kind of got promoted very quickly even though his skills are lacking. I personally feel he is not equipped yet to deal with a planner role yet. Of coz final promotion decision did not lie with me. Hence he was promoted despite my better reservations.

I mean he is not a BAD worker to be honest. He is good natured at heart and genuinely tries to do his work to the best he can. However in June he suddenly request for sabbatical break of 2 months. Citing he needs to find his work mojo back, & that he needed to find back himself. So he made his point to the management and again it was decided that he will be given that much needed break of 2 months. 

Again not about being a bitch but seriously after 2 years of working he is telling me he needs farking sabbatical. That is BS. Truly. I mean i have been working for almost a decade and i had never taken a friggin sabbatical before. Does that mean that i am a workaholic or have no other aspirations? I don't get kids nowadays. I really don't. 

The worst thing is now that he is back from his 2 months break, i expected a fresher person but he seems more chui than before. And i hate that. I mean come on you have friggin 2 months to do nothing, jolly well get your farking act together and work. I told him being a planner means he is more senior and that he needs to carry his weight and able to anticipate things. But he is telling me he is used to taking instructions, i was like then you might as well be an executive. Arrggghhh. 

Sometimes i talk to him it seems that whatever i say is not registering in his head and it disturbs me. He always just give me a friggin blank look which i hate. I really do. I mean whatsup with this boy. V told me i have to be soft and more encouraging to him. Like say more words of praise rather than reprimanding him. I am like but he had not done stuff that is deserving my praise. Isn't fake praise worst?!? V said basically just change my tone of voice. -_- geeez 

Gosh it is really irking me and i don't know what to do. Maybe i should change him off. Get the executive and leave this planner over to Adtitya. Let him & myself have a fair share of change of environment, so he can feel more confident about himself. Will bring it up to mr Orhpeh on Monday when i see him. 

Guess thats all i can do for now. 

K thats all for today. Sign off....

Trying to make sense of it all....Blessed that i am seeing you at 23 weeks

Wow...so fast another week zoom past.

This week to Dr Fong was so so only. Lil Emmanuel growing well but the mummy is growing exceedingly well! Boo...am at 67.2kg when i should only be 65kg. So I must go back to controlling my weight gain, back to carb-less, salads and small little meals.

Wow past week, alot of things happening. I felt the little one more pronounced at letting me know he is inside me.I moved into my new place. We bought MORE bb stuff aside from stroller - Like inquiring maid services, bought my breast pumps, random baby clothes & socks & talking more to the lil one.

The whole prepping to welcome this lil fellow is serious biz. I mean initially i can joke like its surreal and all. Week by week, seriously I feel a sense of panic especially at night when i lie there quietly trying to fall asleep. I hate the fact that i am not in control of the situation - like delivery date, the quality of the confinement lady, the way the baby is going to behave, the way I AM gonna behave.

I hate not knowing all of these prior to the arrival. Like now i don't have any specifics and i hate that. Sometimes i feel like i am all alone feeling the weight of this lil one. V is like absorb in preparing the house, and i am the vessel holding the lil fellow. So detached and weird. Blame it on the hormones but i really feel like screaming out at V. Haiz..no rhyme or reason.

I don't know if i am ready to handle the change. I can't envisioned me saying goodbye to my own- time and spending all waking hours coo-ing & ahhh-ing to this lil fellow!! Am i normal for having such thoughts? Sorry my dearie lil Emmanuel for having that thought. ><

Haha Natie was so sweet...she told me will organize babies playgroups where we can house the babies together while the adults can have reasonable sane conversations. Aww...look fwd to that...

k enough ranting for today ....eve of Haji...no mood to work ....;P

A surreal reality.... Left with 18 weeks

Haha just back from my babymoon and I feel reality hits. *points to subject!!

Today VNA attended our very first baby fair. Gosh it was madness....we never knew one can buy trolley-loads of diapers and formulas!!! Geeez... Like serious biz. I have never seen an invasion of fellow preggers and newborns congregating together!! Definitely an eye-opener for both of us. 

Before going...I told V what to expect. Told him what I wanted to buy so we can be focused and get thru the crowd. We could deal with people but not the snake-line queues that followed. How can people bring their newborns to the fair? That poor child. 

Anyway as I settle into the fact we are gonna be parents and that a lifelong learning awaits both of us, we had to start preparing for the lil one arrival. Hence the baby fair.

Anyway we were proud to buy a Capella Cony stroller for this lil fellow. And it's gonna be a bright orange one. No red like dad's Lexus but hey this is just as cool. Thanks to my fellow gf - Shermeen for her kind recommendation. 

While there we also managed to get our fridge & other nick knacks for our new love nest. Can't wait to move in come this weekend- awesomeness!!! 

A pic of our stroller....the first big item for our lil boy- Emmanuel (trying to get used to this name) geeez....

Looks cool right... Apparently it's a one -hand maneuver stroller.... So shall see how I handle it ...in 18 weeks time... ;P

Enough baby talk. Let's talk about my other excitement...

Well as VNA starts preparing for the lil fellow. There is also another project ...well short term project that we are doing. Yeah that's the Reno of our brand new love nest. 

Yes after Woodlands, we are officially days away from residing into our new love nest at Woodleigh. Gosh so excited to see this simple place turning out to be another cosy home, and best thing is we are gonna have our lil baby with us in another 4 months time. How happy can we be? ;p

Anyway this time round we decided to go with an ID as my lovely Mr V decided I should not have to worry over the Reno given my condition and he obviously can't do it since he is colorblind. So we had engaged Distinct identity - Keith to be our designer. 

Of coz having a budget in mind meant we needed to be super stringent in our wants. Some can...some cannot. So VNA so far been fairly agreeable, guess being in a delicate condition helped too... 

http://www.distinctidentity.com.sg- a link if you ever wish to Reno or design a house. Think the service is not bad even though we are small case clients. Hahah you can see the state of our place and be the judge. 

Some teaser pics before the furnitures go in on satty. 

Tadaa.....there you go. VNA love nest....

Can't wait for next wk where I will finally reunite with mr V after 4months break. I do miss my dearie hub and he had been wonderful thus far....am thankful as always... ❤️❤️

A shitty experience with lil Ashley

hahaha typing this title is just damm hilarious. I just had to pen this down before i forget.

I am currently staying with my bro and family while waiting for my new love nest to be ready. So in a way its good coz the girls & lil Aaron are all there. So almost like a headstart in training to be surrounded by young children.

Last night i had my first real taste of being a parent. Lil Ashley was whining to her mum about needing to go toilet to xu-xu (her way of saying i need to go shit NOW). However her mum was busy wiping lil Aaron down halfway. So there she is like half whine and half cry, i decided to help her. I told her come let xiao gu help you with your diaper, then u can go.

So she waddled towards me half whining, and stopped in front of me. I pulled down her pants and out roll a big piece of SHIT onto the floor. I was like woah taken aback and stood up. Dear lil Ashley quickly just rush to the toilet bowl and get on with her big biz. Thank god for my bro (her dad) came running and saw the shit on the floor and quickly use a tissue to pick it up and wash it down the toilet bowl quickly. Hahahaha..... i was like WOW ....watsup with the shit man!!! Lil Ashley was still sweet enough to give me a nice big smile as she was trying to do her big biz. Guess thats her way of saying thanks Xiao Gu.

Hahaha as i told V about the story. He was like put the shit back into the diaper lah! *super roll eyes. Geez what parents would we be to our lil Son. hmm....always discussing about shit and farts and name calling each other!!! tsk tsk tsk....

oh well..just wanted to pen this down for future laughs. Would have taken a pic of the shit if i had my phone with me. hahaha....lucky it was not lao sai!!!! ;P

And VNA first born will be a lil Baby Boy @ week 19+ detailed scan

It is a BOY!!!! Just like what mr V predicted. He even said he knew it right away it will be a BOY. *roll-eyes

Wow spent 3 hours yesterday from scanning to waiting for results to Dr Fong but all is worth it. We had a full hour seeing the lil fellow bumping inside me. He is very active and i guess its the boy genes in him.

I got loads of scans featuring him from different angles from head to toes. Seeing his lil toes...fingers and lips moving were so amazing. I almost wanted to say bring on MORE babies if the process is all so easy, but lets reserve that comment till this lil fellow is out.

So post scan... lil one is looking good. Placenta is up...my weight gain at 1.2kg (within range), amniotic liquid is at healthy level. Amen to that. Thanks to Him for provisions and continued blessings.

Am now planning for my baby moon, though Dr Fong being the ever cautious him tells me to continue to take it easy & not over-exert myself.

After baby moon, we have to plan to get the maid in before lil one is out. And start getting ready whatever else i need to prepare. Gosh like machiem 9 months not enough!!!

Zen me needed!!!

k thats it for now. I have a nice lil scan that shows the lil one's scrotum and penis...mmm will post it when i can get a pic of it. So cute i swear! ;P

Starting my bird nest diet too! mmmm...can't wait!!!

VNA see you at 15 weeks

Wow amazing ...last week visit to the doc was good. We see this lil one resting and turning abit, And it showed me the tiny lil bones that are forming within. I was in awed. I mean i can't imagine that my body actually produce this tiny fellow swimming in me. Well doc says  my placenta is abit low. No red alert as yet but i need plenty more rest and should walk less. Hence for holiday destinations seem like Korea is out, i can only go for beach holis. Least doc was optimistic and ask me to go for a break via a flight. So phew.... V can't contest with that.

So now i can start shortlisting some beach holidays destination - contenders are Bali, Krabi & Koh Samui. So far i think we are veering towards Krabi coz thats where mr V proposed to me. So he felt hold some special memories if we go back there now. So yay can start planning to head out in early Oct before i get too big to enjoy the sights. happy me and lil Baby. :D

Oh well...thus far....been trying to blog to document this entire process. As always am always thankful to Him for hearing our desire and giving us the blessing. And thus far blessing my pregnancy to be smooth. Though ballooning abit but am trying to pamper myself to ensure i don't look frumpy and gross. I hope i am achieving that coz the vain pot in me refuse to give in to the frumpy me!! hmrph..i can do it!!!

Seriously i was walking in the kiddy palace yesterday and i nearly stabbed myself. I hope and pray that feeling will change soon. I went in and all the frumpy maternity wear and wailing kids were just too much. I walked one round and decide enough. hahaahaa

Aside from my V, family members, colleagues, X colleagues, my church mates and Trish of coz.... I had not been able to meet with anyone else. Even Jan. Guess can't help it lah she got lil Ems now, also hard to juggle time. Hopefully once i moved to my mum's place i can meet with her more and play with lil Ems. Such a sweeet lil darling. Gosh seeing other peeps' kids always so pressurizing. Think i need to increase my frequency of looking at good looking babies. ^^ hahah .. oh well hopefully can meet some of my gfs tonight ...hopefully they dun cancel on me..

k enough randomness....till week 20 by then will know its a hunk or babe!!! Need some contribution to my diaper fund! ;P Deep down i want a boy but i am prepping myself in case its a girl!! nevertheless all good still... :D

till later... see the little spine from the scan!! hahah
Yeah thats the lil fellow @ 15 weeks...

I see u again @ 11 weeks

Wow. ....what an amazing journey it has been. To be able to hear the strong and healthy sound of the Lil one's heartbeat. Truly God's miracle. 

Had told most close friends about my pregnancy and though I am happy they are happy. But I worry about having too much information. As it is I am reading alot thru the Internet and I think it had made me almost paranoid of a lot of things. But to have more experienced mothers telling me more things to watch out are making me very depressed. 

While I grapple with my increasing weight due to my good appetite, I am also concerned about looking frumpy and miserable. V is trying to be the most patient but being man they are just man. Somethings they just don't understand and don't get it. 

I worry that I may seem rude to some mother frens who start offering too much info...and I think too much. 

Haiz a lot of things to think about and also worry about especially the rising costs of hvg a baby and of coz us moving to a new place. Gosh.... I need to remain zen......

Coping with negativity

Recently been a slew of incidents happening around me. 4 friends around me been through some major events that made them dive into depression. I am comforted that 3 chose to talk to me and allowed me to counsel them. Am not the most amazing counsellor but glad they chose to confide in me rather than being by themselves. 

In summary....of my friends' predicaments...

1 friend wants a divorce with her husband of less than 6 months. 

1 friend is in serious depression due to eye trauma and mental health dipping due to eye trauma. 

1 friend went through a sudden breakup with an asshole after 2 years of peaceful relationship. 

1 friend broke off an engagement after she found bf been cheating on her for 1.5 years. 

I personally feel for these friends. Of coz I have my own opinions on how things should work but I am not them. I can only pray for them to see light and hopefully able to pull themselves out from the situations they are in. 

Guess as we all grow older, we become more vulnerable. Often than not when things don't turn out right, we are thrown off balance. It is not easy to climb back up unless u have a strong support system like friends or families (to a certain extent spiritual support).

For me, I have been trying to cope with this Lil miracle within me. I feel like an alien at times, most of the time now I just feel fat. Truly a lot of my pants getting tighter, and shopping irritates me coz I can't wear half the stuff. Boo. Trying to keep my emo in check too, which is hard. I want to scream at times when I am faced with stupidity. I have patience with slowness and asking unnecessary questions. Gosh...I am turning into a bitch. Haizzzz.... 

But really want to thank Him for giving me a smooth pregnancy so far. I feel ok....eating well (too well) and sleeping well (though I think I should zzz more). But overall AOK. amen to that.

K I written long enough. That's it for now. 

Week 8- I saw you again...

Exciting weekend. Met with Dr Fong, and I finally just have a normal scan at the tummy. And there it was. The Lil one peeking at me with a strong sounding heartbeat. In all the excitement we forgot to take pictures or get the scan pic. Geeez.... So much for paying the friggin weekend charge.

dr Fong is happy that I am eating well....no signs of nausea....no signs of anything except super painful boobs. Which he deduce will most likely follow me thru out the 9 months. Boo....

Had a nice retail therapy with Trish. After her recent breakup, guess its good to get her out to join me and V for a movie. We watched World War Z ...which was quite exciting I must say. I think I do get a kick out of seeing zombies. Hahaha abit gory but yeah...it's awesome!!

Ok...shall stop here. Dreading Monday tomorrow...dreading work...wish I can call in sick... Geez...till next post....

NOTE to myself....am trying to see more cute pictures of babies....and of coz praying fervently daily to the Lil one. 

Time to see U again.

Well it's 8th week now. This satty I will be seeing the Lil miracle again. Surreal but yeah...

So far so good... Been eating none stop. Maybe coz my palate is so limited, so far all edible. And NO I have no special cravings for fruits especially durians. V is like omg what if the Lil one like durian...*major roll eyes

Finally told immediate families, and I am thankful they are all so enthusiastic about the Lil one. But seriously take a chill pill. Will show you the list my eager SIL (recent mother) shared with me....

Oh well...I have been saying my nightly prayers, eating my supplements, eating my apples, eating variety of veges....hopefully ok...abit constipated ...Yakult is helping me...hopefully no prune juice required...

K that's it for now....till the next post....

The list here is for parents that needs 2 sets of items (one set for home use - Weekends, and one set for day caretaker's home)

List for baby:

0-1month:

1. Avent bottles (125ml) - 6 bottles  (3 ur home, 3 mum's home)

2. Avent bottles (260ml - for storage of breast milk) - 4 -6 bottles (split into ur home and ur mum's home)

3. Teats - avent (0+month - 1 hole) - 6 teats

4. Puréen bottle cleanser (green) - 1 bottle + 1 refill pack

5. Tollyjoy baby clothes detergent (pink) - 1 bottle + 1 refill pack

6. Sterilizer (avent ; 4-in-1) - 2 units

7. Milk warmer (Avent) - 2 units

8. Breast milk storage bag - 3 boxes

9. Breast pad - 1 box

10. Baby Cot (2 units - 1 for ur home, 1 mum's home)

11. Baby body shampoo (2 bottles)

12. Baby diapers (mamipoko new born - 3 packs

13.  Cotton wool pack (for washing of baby's face) - 1 pack

14. Baby wipes - Anakku brand  (6 packets)

15. Baby powder 2 bottles

16. Baby lotion 2 bottles

17. Bottle brush - 2

18. Baby white napkins - 2 dozen (split)

19. Mittens -& botties/socks 1 dozen each

20. Baby bathing basin (2 units)

21. Ru yi you - 2 big bottles 

22. Desitin brand buttock cream (blue) - 2 tubes (purple - stronger)

23. Baby long sleeves bodysuit - 1 dozen

24. Swaddle clothe (to wrap bb back home from hospital) 1 piece

26. Baby short sleeves bodysuit - 1 dozen

27. Baby long pants - 1 dozen

28. Handkerchief - 1 dozen

29. Soft handkerchief - 1 dozen

30. Diapers changing mat - 2 (ur home and mum's home)

31. Nail scissors/clippers 

32. Comb

33.  Baby bib (5 each)

34. Baby pillow - 4 (split into 2

Places)

35. Baby bolster - 4 (split into 2 places)

36. Baby mattress, pillow and bolster covers (2-3 sets each side)

37. Baby Blanket - 2 - 3 sets each side

38.  Plastic container to store after sterilized bottles - 2 sets

39. Baby room lamp (yellow light - for night use to check on baby) 1 unit

40. Baby bouncing bed - 2 sets (optional)

List for mummy:

1.  3-4 sets of nursing bra (invest in good ones - to maintain the shape of the breast)

2. Breast pad (is a must for the first 3 weeks)

3. Nursing clothes (I wear big big t-shirt)

4. Confinement lady

5. 30 packets of bathing herbal (depends how long is ur confinement - varied from 28days to 40 days)

6. Medela flexible duo pump

7. Drink plenty of water and soup to increase milk production.

8. Stay happy and positive

9. Is ok to cry if u feel like to.... Let it out.... Do not control

10. Maternity pad (5 packets)

11. 2 - 3 packet (each packet -5 panties) of Disposal panties (from labour till out of hospital)

13. Milk storage bag - 10 packets for a good 3 months BF program

14. Stretch mark cream - continue to apply

15. Latching clothe ("peek n feed" brand) CNt rem the brand name

16. Nipple cream - is a must!!!

17. Nipple wipes... 2 boxes

18. Dry shampoo

19. Towels (to wipe sweats - is a must)

20. Body Towels for herbal bath use - 4 towels

21. 4-5 sets of Long trousers (pyjamas - to replace sarong)

22. Vagina disinfectant spray (normally hospital will provide)

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A miracle in the making

Tadaaaa.... It is quite amazing just after 1 week I can hear the heartbeat and Lil VNA has grown a few mm.

I really wanna thank God for his blessings and may he continue to bless my pregnancy and bless this Lil miracle growing inside me. Strong, healthy, good looking, and god fearing child is what I sincerely pray for everyday....

God bless me to eat healthily and responsibly. 

Amen....

1 more week to our big move...bye bye woodlands!!!

Looking forward to this Satty

Another milestone this weekend. Am looking forward to hearing the heartbeat @ week 6.

Am praying fervently for a good healthy growth. Faithfully taking my vits and trying to eat more vegs. It is really hard to stomach fruits. Mere thought of fruits super bleargh

Still have not told my mum. Guess wait till we hear the heartbeat before revealing the big news. So surreal to be keeping such a news from my family and friends. :)

I have been so tired....so trying to sleep slightly earlier and so easily hungry. thanks to my dear V, faithfully driving me around to eat my favourite things. Love that.

On the flip side been really busy with house moving. Am worried once i tell my mum, she sure will say no to moving here and there. Of coz not like i will super care. Will try to avoid whenever possible, but what a timing. We just sold off our red couch, tv console, dining table, shelves & bed frames. Geeeez so sad to see such an empty house. The house that had been our lovenest for the past 5 years.

Emo time!

ok thats the update for now....

In self denial..i need to talk about IT

Congratulations! Your baby is due on or around:

Wednesday, 5 February 2014
4 weeks pregnant (Recalculate)

• Your baby is about the size of a poppy seed

I have not told anyone not even my parents. Between me and V we just been smiling at each other and basically me torturing him with lil things like fetching me water!! kekeke

Unless you are still a faithful reader of my blog (like SJ) then  yeah you will know about this NEWs too. 

So far doc had taken 3 vials of blood from me to ensure baby is growing and all came back positive. Like its doubling every 2 days. 

As it is, my food palate already very minimum. Now it seems to be shrinking further. Well technically i need to add fruits!!! bleargh...veg i can try but fruits are really gross!! 

Oh dear...how now brown cow!!!!

geeeez

A big change

Wow...it seems like there is a miracle inside me right now. The feeling is both surreal and scary. I just pray fervently that this miracle will continue to grow healthily and that angels will protect all of us. 

I think it is probably week 4 now. So Dear dr Fong is still monitoring my blood to ensure the hcg levels are growing normally. I pray it will too.... 

Fertility issues

After years of denial, yes I have fertility issues. I have mild endometriosis, and my canal is challenging. To be honest, years of growing up I never thought I would be plague by this issue. I had normal regular period, occasional cramps but not dying kind. 

I think it's a woman' natural progression that you need to use your womb, and if left untouch weird things happened. It's like a punishment for not using your womb for what is for. So there yesterday I went for my first IUI and that's where my gynae told me that its the most challenging IUI he had ever done. :(

This whole experience just sucks. I hate the eating...the monitoring..the injections ....the constant reminders when I am on the streets that I can't perform the most basic task of child birth.

All in all, I still put my faith in God. I believed he has a plan for me in 2013. With the new house on the way, I am sure he will bless me with the miracle file of God. All in good time ...I just have to be still and wait. 

Amen. 

That's all for now.

I am an impatient bitch

Hmm...why am i am in self-loath mode? No not depressed. But just that work is busy and pressurizing for the past 2 weeks and I feel there is a need for me to rant.

I know as I accumulate experience I should be teaching the younger generation- the supposed Gen Y. I keep telling myself that I need to let go, but the control freak in me can't. I am always amazed at why these gen Y find it so easy to say don't know and that itself washes them clean of any responsibility. Bullshit... Seriously....

Back in my days you suck it in and just friggin do it. Maybe I am lagging but I can't tolerate the constant spoon-feeding and constant mothering. I wish these kids can start to be more initiative and also get more eq.

Wait a min was I like that once? Hmm...I dunno. Well I earned my stripes working for so many years, so these kids jut have to learn. Think life at Loreal changed me, stripped me of my innocence and instill an impatient bitch.

Things I discover about myself ..... Hahaha

That's it for now...till next post.

Counting down to saying bye bye to woodlands... Boo....

A peaceful Sunday, like.

After weeks of searching for a house. Finally a weekend we can rest and actually catch up on our sleep.

Started the day with worshipping God and having a nice encounter with him. Truly felt the presence of Him today. For I know I have his word, his grace and his love, and if god is for us who can be against us.

Lunch was a good time fellowshipping with my CG. looking forward to our Vesak day excursion to kukup.

Attaching my idol of the moment- Jo in sung oppa.

God is INDEED GOOD ALL THE TIME

Wow...this is truly miracle.

We had been looking for that elusive love nest for the past month. As of last post, we thought we found it.

True enough...we kept thinking about the unit. Finally we went for the 2nd viewing with my mum and sis over weekend. Viola we made an offer.

However the asking price was 1.55mil, least that is what the agent says. We steadily sat at woodleigh till 7pm doing our numbers, checking the price we can afford without killing ourselves. So dear Ming said lets put forth 1.5mil first and see how. In my heart I thought, seriously if at 1.48mil reject, you think they are going to consider us at 1.5mil meh?? But still Ming wanted to try. So off we left her to work her magic.

While for the next 48hrs, we were praying hard to God for provision and also a smooth transaction, and finally of coz accepting our 1.5mil offer. True enough today we finally got the green light and also the OTP form from seller confirming the acceptance.

Indeed God works in true miracle. Am so blessed and thankful for this wonderful blessing. Now am just left with one last blessing.

God is indeed good all the time is all I can say and I truly believe it.

Amen

8@woodleigh - block 2, #01-03. Awesome...indeed. ;)

Funny how life turns out... At 34

Just past my 34 bday. Begins another year of adventure. First part of adventure started at work with Mediacom shifting to the china square.

Second part of adventure was quite unexpected. Started with random chat with meen who intoro her very on agent -Ming to me. Well Ming recently helped meen to sell and upgrade her Lil abode. So VNA decided hey let's try and check out how much our flat can fetch. Anyway no kids no nothing, so lets sell our house. Well low and behold we got the valuation, not super ideal but still higher than what paid. Within 2 weekends, the house was sold at 480k when we bought at 270k. So VNA happy. Now VNA stressing over where the new love nest will be. Soo cross fingers and toes we can get the unit we want....

Third part of adventure- IUI. Hopefully we can sort that out by this week and then...tadaa all goes well. Praying hard on that aspect and house too....

May our prayers be answered real soooooon....

Till the next post. Technically with iPad mini I should be able to blog more. Yes I should. YOLO!!

http://www.propertyguru.com.sg/listing/13218666/for-sale-8-woodleigh

Is this where we will stay??? :)

Latest addition to the Tan family... Lil Aaron Tan

Aww...looking at this photo can totally make my day. Lil Aaron is growing cuter every day even in the midst of his two naughty sisters. Glad the two sis ain't too rough with him.

Well more pics to follow....:)