After SELF CENSORING MY OWN BLOG, this is another entry. For I had deleted that very abusive blog against my own darling V. For that childish behaviour, I apologized to my dearest dear2- V.
Anyways, all is good and happy happy now. We GOT OVER that incident and back to our loving self. Haha, after a few hugz and muakz we moved on….
A thought came to me tonight. ‘Marrying a millionaire’ was the title of a Korean drama that I just finished watching. The storyline was very simple and some would say predictable. But certain bits were truly touching and romantic that I cried whilst watching (what else is new).
I start asking myself, what matters more? A guy who can bring you security for the future or a simple honest guy who can offer you a true heart? In this harsh cruel reality where it is such a fine line between true innocent and superficial lust, how do we differentiate what do we really want?
I just got news from a girlfriend of mine that she is getting married next year. This coming from her is really something significant. She was the person with the most negative view about getting married since she had some bad past experiences. She only been with this Dutch dude for like a year and a half, and she is all ready to take the plunge. I had the strangest thought when I heard the news. Was definitely happy, but at the same time I wonder if its true love. Or is it the illusion of the social security the guy could bring to the table.
Call me the skeptic or a jealous bitch, but that was my thought. My girlfriend even specifically said that she said YES to her fiancé before she even saw the ring. Does it mean that she worries that I might think otherwise? Hence she made it a point to highlight to me when telling me the process of his proposal to her. YES it was romantic, being something different and definitely a pleasant surprise.
BUT is one and a half year enough to know a person that you want to stay together forever and ever? Me and V been together for 6 years and I really like it that we have this synergy when we are together. Somehow we kind of understand each other on certain days just by looking at each other or finishing each other sentences (though of coz there are days we argue too). I don’t know and I don’t have any answers.
I know people says 6 years are long, so what are we waiting. They ain’t see enough couples I say, coz I have a couple friends for almost 10years. Still not getting married.
Yawnz…late already…damm…neeed to zzz…sleepy…battle at work tomorrow.