Why is my blogs inconsistent in settings?

I have come to realise the usual font that i used is kind of small. Reason is typing and actual post differs alot. Like i usually like to type in font size 10 which is fine for me, however when i do post it. The actual font seems like a font size 8 which i think is way too small for my 'regular' readers. I am a considerate blogger.

Why is my font size a 10 or 12 you ask me? Errmm....answer to that is a big question mark. I don't know. Coz when i blog it was alright, post it and it just comes out different. So well am also lazeee to change it so there you go.

Point is...its the lazy administrators who managed the blogging servers at fault. Never my fault!

Thats all to the post!

=)

so NOT a political post!

YAY! V managed to get coach ticket to Singapore this long weekend. In view of the long Labour day weekend, so the tickets for the major coaches are all gone. Thank goodness, he went to the Pudu terminal to inquire the less comfortable coaches. Viola, GOT TICKETS!!

Very happy he is coming over. Especially since our big fight last week, can't wait to see him. Been missing his ah chek's presence around me!! heee....

Back to my blog title today. Oh GE is coming and guess what, my VIRGIN VOTE!! So excited. Imagine feeling really important for that briefest moment as i make my choice on that little card. Almost like the whole of Singapore's fate lies in my vote. What if my card was the deciding vote?? *SMACK* wakey wakey....HONESTLY we all know how true that is. HEY, NOW at least i know SEMBAWANG is important enough to be contested. Honestly at the rate we have been trudging along all these years, i almost thought that perhaps government had forgetten about Sembawang area. Well ain't the most political person here anyway to make any comments since i hardly keep track. Except listening to my mum occasional gripes with the 38 aunties behind my block known as the grapevine.

Another significant thing on GE day will be my bro leaving for Hong Kong day. Been preparing his stuff for the past month. Abit sad he will be gone, though he was irritating and obnoxious. Of coz, with him gone i have to take over the responsibilities. Am pretty sure my folks are sad too, especially my dad. No more soccer or formula talk, somemore World Cup coming. Hope i can get a job soon, then will subscribe the extra channels for him.

Keeping my hopes still. Praying and bai bai....whatever works out there. HELP ME!

Addicted to Brown!

Darn blogging site is farking retarded. Still seeing the repeated blog and my pointless blog was not even published. DAMMIT blog administrators, DO YOUR WORK!!! STOP SKIVING!

Points to my nick. Recently been listening to online podcast from this link http://www.mrbrown.com/blog/podcast/index.html

There is this particular series called 'Zhng my car'. You can click on the above link, scroll down to about 3/4 page you will hear the first part. Pls do go on to the site when you can. It is so addictive. I have been listening to the series and rolling around laughing coz it is just so funny. Makes fun of singlish and of coz the occasional hokkien. Aside from that, this site is also linked to other very popular blogs which you can also go read if you have the time. Heaps of stuff at mr brown site. Go check it out.

Still no news about the temp job. Feeling lost. =(

Fun pic of me with V yawning away!see the HIPPO MOUTH!

Retarded blog!

K...this darn blogger site. I had obviously deleted the repeated blog. However it is not showing on my blog site. Very irritated. What the hell is wrong? Arrrgghhh....

This post serves no purpose except to clarify to whoever out there reading that this is a retarded website!!

Sunshine & rainbow after rainy storm!

Kiss and Make up? Not applicable in my case right now since V ain't around. But who can deny that kiss and making up after a fight is the sweetest. hahaa....

Had just got a good talk with V about the whole heart paining issues that had been bugging me. Which caused me to slam the phone and not talk to him. Well, can so tell who is the stark raving lunatic here. Yeah I can be one unreasonable bitch when it comes to quarreling. But hey this time round it was pretty bad, and i did not think i was the one to be apologetic. Although i still apologised for slamming phone down 2 times and ignoring his calls. You can't blame me coz i was out and emotionally unstable to take his call (lest i scared the hell out of my friends). Still he apologised for the miscommunications and the hurtful things he said. Just wanted him to see my point, and where i was coming from rather than he thinking i was just PMSING. Which he always assume whenever i go into my moods. Though i had a sneaky feeling he is prob right 90%. hahaha.....

Wish he was around so we could literally do the kiss and make up thing like what we had usually do. Am happy we talked it over and things are now back on track. Had to thank iris who helped me to put things to perspective and also point out my mistakes. Guess being the prideful person that i am, i needed someone to put me in place. Think V gave up already after getting so much grieve from me about my dreaded pride.

I know i watched way too much korean dramas for my own good, but hey you do pick up some learnings from it. Don't know how to put into words, but i will remember it and remember to apply to my relationship with V. Will treat this as part of our tests to being away from each other. Been just coming to 4 mths, still left about 20mths to go. Will persevere and endure it. V also realised how unhappy i was, so he is also making constructive changes so we can spend quality time together whenever he comes back.

I made a small little picture of the both of us through my phone. Very cheesy and corny, but hey think its pretty cute. Well can't post it coz i can't sync my hp with my old gateway laptop. too bad.

Enjoying the sunshine and rainbow for now..... =)

My current korean squeeze!

Here you go. What i have been busy and mentioning in my previous blogs. KSW. What a darling he is. Never arguing, never saying anything hurtful. Always smiling to me. Just the way i like it.

Calm and Collected is NOT my traits!

Hey no post last night. Well I wanted to, but my damm wireless got abit screwed. Wow...weekend. What a weekend it was supposed to be, and now its gone. Woah, yesterday was such a tiring day. Thank goodness a distraction to take me away from my own thoughts.

My stomach is paining again, not sure why. But had po chai pills already so now seem a tad better. Think i just need to go to the loo. But no feeeeling. K...again too much details.

I am a worriesome person. I think too much. And i can write no more at least not today....

=(

Heart is paining...

Been feeling really down and lousy these days. Think my stomach also know i am upset. Keep having the runs. K, too much details there. Haha....

Just had a long chat with a gf of mine. Am so thankful for her, coz not able to talk to anyone proper for the past week is kind of driving me crazy. I hate these influx of rollercoaster feelings that I am feeling in me. People called it mood swings but i termed it ADDY's poison. I am glad i was able to offer my ear and vice versa. We talked for hours and hours. I think i could never stop, coz all the things just came to my head. I din know who else can i talk to who could understand my hurt and frustrations. She was able to point out certain things with clarity to me, and deep down i know what i must do. Put things in perspective.

Why are relationships so full of misery and hurt? Why can't a relationship be about fun and laughter? Do one have no pride when facing love? Is it coz the other half is your closest partner that you should not have any pride when face to face? Lover or Friends, can they co-exist? Introvert and Extrovert, passive vs active? Who holds the key to my heart, myself? Believe in God or Buddha? So many questions YET so many variation of answers.

Just realised how much am i worth, obviously not much. The stinging pain in my heart is like the pain of water on an open wound, and it doesn't seem to stop. What is going to happen? Million dollar question. Do i face it with courage or do i run like a coward?

What shall i do? Questions, questions and questions???

Initial coupling memories..such fond memories...

Woah, April is seeing loads of blogging action on my own site. One can obviously tell i have WAY too much time on my own. Nevertheless, been having strange dreams recently. Am feeling very unsettled about things, and stuff. Not sure what it is. Maybe its the lack of job or lack of V being around me. There is a sense of paranoia threatening to take over me. K, maybe that was over-doing it. Still....

Back to my title for this particular post. I have been thinking about how V and myself had progressed through the years. From back in 2000 where we were house-mates in Perth (WA) till year 2006 where we had been a couple for almost 6 years. Suddenly memories of our university days came to me (probably too much OC). Do not want to loose the memories of Perth if i can. No matter big or small. I remembered how days where we all hang out from my own group of friends and V's group of friends. In addition, how in between working at a supermarket V still came and pick me up in school. Well not to mention it was the freeeeezing winter. The endless mugging for V's final thesis, and my own final assignment. The rush at seeing each other at the corrider especially when V was a part-time tutor too. WOW....what fond memories was that man! hahaha....

Of coz there were the petty quarrels coz that was the trying times where i had to adjust to him being a devoted christian and started to force myself to church. Wait a minute, get back to talking about memories. Sorrie for the lack of focus....

I remembered V working really hard as a pizza delivery boy for DOMINOS. And how for dinner he would bring back HOT pizza which i could totally gorge down quickly. So got to a point, V was quite sick about pizzas. But i was still going strong. Then of coz, that job did not last too long as V was not earning much. Stroke of luck came, V found a job at a nearby supermarket (sort of like Econ-minimart). It was just 4mins walk from my house, 2 mins if i run. Will always go to the supermarket when i know V was working there. Not that i will get discount or anything, but just fun to be walking around. Knowing that V is just down the aisle packing stuff or up at the counter checking stuff out for customers. Hard work it was, but it paid for V's most expenses while he was studying for his honours. Most of the time, given a choice we both would rather go to Coles or Woolworths at Carousel. Reason being the food and stuff were more fresh and better quality compared to the small little neighbourhood supermarket.

I remembered towards the last 6 months of our stay, things got alot hectic as I was rushing for my final lap and V was rushing for his thesis. Things were pretty intense with both of us being very short-tempered and lazy. We cooked less, ate out almost everyday, laundry once a week. We hardly even bothered with cleaning our own rooms (thats more ME actually). hahahaa. But it was good fun, we still managed to squeeze time to go for cheap movies that we redeemed from our receipt stubs.

Last quarter of our stay, we were almost camping out in school's computer lab. Both of us drove in the winter cold to school at midnight to do our assignments. Braving cold and also illegal parking. Going for late night cuppa with friends to escape the stress and cold.

Thinking back sure makes me very happy now. I missed those days, wished i had got a camera phone then. So i could preserve those wonderful moments.

thats it for this post..... =)

Just realised the damm blogger site absolutely refuse to me post my fav star of the moment online. Hence WTH, too bad. Can't share it with ya.

Absolutely mindless post here. Feeling a tad down today. Bleargh....

Realised the pictures for my latest fantasies did not come out as i wanted. Damm stoopid blogger site. Shall attempt to try again.

KSW

I AM TURNING INTO A KOREAN GROUPIE!

This is going to be a very strange post. Not sure why am i posting this. DOhz....

Points to my title of this blog!! I am so turning into a GROUPIE it is not funny. 3 tell-tale signs to know when one is obsessed.

1) Obsessively searching for particular online sites that had information about the particular drama and also about the stars. Looking at fanlisting, reading non-readable korean words that makes absolutely no sense to one.
2) Start trying to learn the language and practicing to no one since obvoiously everyone else are sane and normal.
3) Putting pictures everywhere from msn to handphone. Thinking how one can blow up the picture into poster size so that one can hang in the room.

GOSH....if the above do not sound groupie and psycho to you, what else does.

I am happy thinking about watching TV programs, especially korean dramas. I mean i am not that into korean sappy dramas. Honestly, i do watch ang moh dramas too. Like THE OC (Season 1), Charmed, GREY's ANATOMY, CSI. See i can be normal too, wait a minute i KNOW what happened in all the eps already, coz i had read the online episode guide!!! geeez...think i am sounding more and more psycho by the minute.

I need help. NO I NEED A JOB!!! I am becoming a walking tv guide (which is supposed to be a good thing if i am in the media line). Funny or not? haiz...

Proofs of me turning into a junkie.

Pictures of KSW- The dude of The Faceshop

Yippeeee.....TV MAKES ME HAPPY!!!

What is consider to be honesty in a relationship? Do you ever been at a dilemma at whether to tell the truth or say a simple white lie in order to escape possible confrontation?

Why do i face the dilemma ever so often? Just kena from V for hanging out with my friends. Am so pissed off right now.

I told him to rest at home instead of going back to batu pahat. He wanted to drive back when he just came back from Germany. Furthermore he is still having a cough and running nose. So we both made a pact that he will not drive back to BP and i will not go and play MJ today. So fair enough this afternoon he told me he is not going back (which took a load of my mind, coz i did not feel good about him driving while sick). haiz....so ok lor.

So on my end, i decided to go out with my friends. I mean try cooping yourself at home for the whole friggin week, i sure welcome any form of social interaction other than my parents. Who knows when i came home, and i told V what i did. Guess what, we argue over it. He was blardeeee angry with me. refuse to call me!! throw a prissy fit mah!!!

What friggin logic is that. He said the pact was that he din drive back and i had to stay home. I did not understand as that. I did specifically told him in the afternoon that i will be going out with friends but ain't playing MJ lor. He did not raise anything to me then. I remember we said bye happily lor. WHAT THE HELL HAPPPENED??

Do i friggin deserve flake when all i want is some social interaction!!!

K ....very angry now....need TV therapy now!!!aarrrgghhh

Tricia's Birthday!

Weekend almost over. Been back in Singapore for a week already. V was back so managed to spend the weekend with him.

It was Tricia's birthday. The gang went out for our usual dinner, and we went to this restaurant in dodgy backlane of old Tiong Bahru market called POH KEE something. Usual click minus Jan of coz, but hey there was a representative this time. Gary came, although he was kena suan by Yiling for not rsvping earlier to our friendly coordinator. The girlies turned up full force, plus a drunk Alex, Gary and V all turned up for the dinner.

The venue was exactly like a typical chee-na restaurant where the tables were all placed very closed to one another, everyone was talking on the top of their voices. Apparently its quite a well-known zhi-cha place. We all agreed on the course dinner. Menu for the night- Sweet and Sour pork (a whole small mountain of it), roast chicken, claypot toufu, steam soon hock fish (coincidentally gary's bro name), kailan, fan shu yeh, ORR NI and cereal prawns.

After dinner, the rest of the girlies went to winebar for drinks and cake. Was not toooo keen on partying since V was in town. So said my goodbyes and went off with V. We headed to PS for a late movie, with all the late
timings we could only catch 'THE PRODUCERS'. I kind of like the show as it was delivered in a musical format. V did not fancy, he felt it was tooooo dragy and pointless. Thats a typical V response. Watever!! hahaha....

On another note, realised that Jan's bday (NOT TOO LONG AGO) we also went to a similar chinese restaurant too at raffles place. I reckoned that we have all progressed to the next level of birthday celebrations. Gone were the Swensens, Marche kind of dinners, replaced with CHIA DOU where everyone gather round at a nice chee-na restaurant.

k ...done with this post...